Hi, I'm Rebekah. 20 years old. Studying Psychology with Clinical Psychology at the University of Lincoln. Lincoln Jets Cheerleader.

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you know when you hear something you don’t wanna hear and your chest just feels kind of empty and it slowly fills back up after time

I know I’ve been venting a lot on here recently, so if anyone is actually reading my posts - I’m sorry. I feel like I’ve lost everyone I’ve ever felt comfortable talking about these things to, so I just have to put it on here instead.

Having a night in with my cheer girls definitely made me feel a bit better this evening. There were still the moments though when I would suddenly be reminded of things, and thought I was about to have a panic attack. I hate being around people when I’m like this because as soon as I feel myself getting bad, I start to panic which just makes things worse. I never got to the point where I had to leave the room to calm myself down though so that was good. Feeling worse now that I am home on my own, but sleeping pills should sort that out.

I normally start feeling a bit better after a few days, but this time I’m just not.

"   I hate going to sleep with you on my mind and not in my bed.   "
Sleep   (via sagmirwo)
Q: You are not determined by your weight or your scars or your failures. You are a unique individual and you out-shine so many people. Please do not let your light go out sweetie. The world will get far too dark without you shining bright x

I’m nothing special. Everyone would be completely fine without me here.


asked by Anonymous
Q: Go out with me.

No thanks


asked by Anonymous
Q: Please take care of yourself, I couldn't bare to lose you

I’m easily replaceable…


asked by Anonymous
Q: I think you're just devishly gorgeous

Thanks anon, but I’m really not.


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Nearly collapsed at cheer today because all I had eaten since Friday afternoon was half a fajita and 2 digestive biscuits. I had Nandos tonight, but just couldn’t enjoy it properly because I have lost my appetite completely (and I also felt guilty about eating it).
I haven’t felt any better about things in general. I feel like I’m constantly on edge, as if I’m waiting for something else bad to happen. It’s awful. I hate this. It couldn’t have happened at a worse time.

Q: Are you okay baby? X

Not really


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I need to go on the sunbed but I can’t even stop crying long enough to put on makeup, nevermind walk into town and back.

I’ve thought I’ve hit rock bottom a couple of times before, but this is by far the worst I’ve been.