Hi, I'm Rebekah. 20 years old. Studying Psychology with Clinical Psychology at the University of Lincoln. Lincoln Jets Cheerleader.


you know when you hear something you don’t wanna hear and your chest just feels kind of empty and it slowly fills back up after time

I know I’ve been venting a lot on here recently, so if anyone is actually reading my posts - I’m sorry. I feel like I’ve lost everyone I’ve ever felt comfortable talking about these things to, so I just have to put it on here instead.

Having a night in with my cheer girls definitely made me feel a bit better this evening. There were still the moments though when I would suddenly be reminded of things, and thought I was about to have a panic attack. I hate being around people when I’m like this because as soon as I feel myself getting bad, I start to panic which just makes things worse. I never got to the point where I had to leave the room to calm myself down though so that was good. Feeling worse now that I am home on my own, but sleeping pills should sort that out.

I normally start feeling a bit better after a few days, but this time I’m just not.

"   I hate going to sleep with you on my mind and not in my bed.   "
Sleep   (via sagmirwo)
Q: You are not determined by your weight or your scars or your failures. You are a unique individual and you out-shine so many people. Please do not let your light go out sweetie. The world will get far too dark without you shining bright x

I’m nothing special. Everyone would be completely fine without me here.

asked by Anonymous
Q: Go out with me.

No thanks

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Q: Please take care of yourself, I couldn't bare to lose you

I’m easily replaceable…

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Q: I think you're just devishly gorgeous

Thanks anon, but I’m really not.

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Nearly collapsed at cheer today because all I had eaten since Friday afternoon was half a fajita and 2 digestive biscuits. I had Nandos tonight, but just couldn’t enjoy it properly because I have lost my appetite completely (and I also felt guilty about eating it).
I haven’t felt any better about things in general. I feel like I’m constantly on edge, as if I’m waiting for something else bad to happen. It’s awful. I hate this. It couldn’t have happened at a worse time.

Q: Are you okay baby? X

Not really

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I need to go on the sunbed but I can’t even stop crying long enough to put on makeup, nevermind walk into town and back.

I’ve thought I’ve hit rock bottom a couple of times before, but this is by far the worst I’ve been.